An average day - when everything falls apart

 Have you ever had a day when nothing worked out? 

I did, even here. You might think, my life is only bubbles and butterflies, just because I'm not in the epicentre of global pandemic, but I can still find actually a lot of challenges here. For instance, a couple of examples: 

- The other day, I left my school pass at home. This means, that I have to obtain a slip of paper saying that I had left it at home, but if that's not enough, I still had to ask around for teachers for keys (obviously, I could not open my door either), and for food (remember saying somewhere at the beginning that my school pass is topped up with money that I use to pay at the cantine? Yes, correct. 

- Or when I leave something at home. Mom nods silently: yes, my little daughter, she's always been like this for her whole life, always leaves something at home or at the school or somewhere... and yes, that's correct too! Absolutely valid point but whenever it happens, I would cry first and only then take a look around and realize it's not a real tragedy at all. My perfectionism is the real tragedy because every problem has a solution, too. Of course, patience helps, but perfectionism doesn't let me have enough patience. I need to know if I'm good at something or not, at the instant moment. I need to solve the problems immediately, or if not, I lose my temper. Luckily, with daily meditation, these things improve and in November, I haven't even left my pass at home - nor my phone. (Obviously I left my phone home when we had a LOT of information going on. But nevermind. It was quite a refreshing feeling to be honest.)

- Which makes me think: why are we so addicted to technology? Yes, you can guess, today, I had a small fiasco with Kahoot. I prepared a quiz - it was offered to have cool questions so I tried the new options, too - when it said, in order to publish the quiz, I had to pay. Fair enough, I can afford it now, so I naturally proceeded to the next step - which was obviously refusing my banking data. Those who know me personally, can already see the smoldering smoke coming out of my ear and the burning keyboard while I'm typing these lines. 

Don't have expectations - they say. I try not to. Thailand gets me there. It crawls under my skin, tests my patience, and hopefully makes me more humble. (I thought I had been humble before - turns out I was not, NOT!) I know I'm persistent. I would never take the easy road. I'm walking right now on a damn hard path, again and I'm getting closer and closer to feeling more and more comfortable but these little nuances often have me unhinged. Well, a lot of things to be learnt still. Of the world, of myself, and so on. 

Anyway, thank you for joining me on this ride, as well, dear Reader, now I'd better save this text before it quits by itself - knowing that technology is not my best friend nowadays. 

Emotionally and as health, I'm doing well though! (And, I guess, that's what matters more. Computers? Well, they can just... you know. Turn off.) :-) 

PS Did I mention that my phone had crashed a couple of weeks ago? You know me, I didn't buy a new one. I bought an alarm clock instead. It would do for a while, till I figure out if I need a new phone or not. X

HUGS